I know I should be forcing myself to sleep. It's 1 a.m., and The kids always get up by 7:30. Although, Mitch usually gets up with the kids because he knows I am really struggling right now. If i get better sleep the pain isn't as bad. It's like if I am tired my nerves are frayed from the stress of being tired and they make me hurt. But how can I sleep? I wouldn't walk willingly into a brick wall, but yet I am supposed to willingly go to sleep knowing I will wake up in pain.
And this week is even worse. Feb 27th is a very bad day for me. I miscarried that day in 2007. And then in 2009 I miscarried a baby who should have been due on Feb 27th. Isabella was supposed to be born on Feb 27th but came premature. I am superstitious, feeling like something bad is going to happen again.
It's past 1 a.m. What am I going to do? Here I go, trying to force myself to sleep. Hello brick wall.
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